.tied up.

Friday, January 21, 2005

messed up.

so much for daddy's day.
i planned my friday last saturday.
i did.
and you tell me to keep friday free for daddy's day.
i did.
i reluctantly cancelled ogl outing from my schedule,
thinking that it'll be good quality time spent with you.
and guess what?
i was rudely woken up by my brother saying,"we're going for breakfast now!"
still groggy,
i pulled myself out of bed,
came out of my room,
asked where and when and what's going on.
you said we're going for breakfast.
you said you'll give me 5 minutes to get ready.
(right and this is military school?)
i was like, huh. tt's a little fast right.
then you said.. ten... fifteen... and you just something which i couldn't quite make out.
i got ready.
still a little blur.
went down.
realise everyone was having breakfast.
i sat there.
looked around and asked, "aren't we going for breakfast? so where are we going?"
he said, "we're not going anymore"
what?!
ok.
right.
then he went on to ask me what my plan is today and all...
and seriously, i wasn't happy.
i said i had a gathering then i had cell.
i asked, so what's daddy's day all about?
he said, i must teach you how to change the light bulb, mow the lawn, clean and change the air con... etc.
brother said, "in that case, judy doesn't have to be around."
dad said, "yah, that's true, but it's good for her to know right."
i almost wanted to die, at that point in time, i was like late for my gathering already.
it was the exact time i was supposed to meet them.
so i asked, "what time do you wanna do that and for how long?"
he said, "the afternoon"
"from 1-6?! i don't think i have that much time to spend on that!"
then he kept asking and asking... and seriously.. asking, what am i gonna do today.
and i was like "could you just keep quiet and let me think!?"
i mean like, you screwed up my day.
i'm trying to fit all my programs in such a way that i can accommodate everyone.
and there you are just SHOUTING and SHOUTING AWAY.
then you said, "my attitude seriously stinks, i act like as if the whole world revolves around me"
in my mind i'm thinking... (hey! here i am trying to fit everything together, i'm asking you for YOUR PLAN! not asking you to follow mine! i'm trying to wrok around YOUR PLAN! who's the self centred one?!)
then you said, "if you wanna think and be quite then go to your room lah! this is a common place to talk and i have the right too."
fine. if that's what you want. so i did.
i lied on my bed, read my purpose driven life book.
then my brother came in and scolded me for reading on my bed. great.
later kor said we'll going out for lunch at 11:30pm.
but guess what.
daddy said, "i'm gonna send granny and kor to godma's place."
great. now you've plan stuff and not tell me and wasted my whole afternoon!
so they left.
i stayed at home all alone.
i slept for 3 hours.
woke up stoned around.
so much for daddy's day.
seriously! if that's what you wanna do the whole day! TELL ME!
it's really annoying how you caused me to back out from all my commitments then do even try to include me in ur daily activities.
next, you plan dinner with the relatives and i can't go cause i'm having cell group.
wonderful.
so much for daddy's day!
i didn't even spend time with you!
in fact!
YOU WASTED MY TIME
i don't have all the time in the world to accommodate everyone.
i had to decline going lunchie or dinnerie with esther too!
and i really tried to work something out, kept my whole day free for you!
and YOU WASTED IT!
and said i suck!
great.
you really rock.

[ Jude whispered ][ 4:41 PM ]

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